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Fri, May. 6th, 2005, 11:16 am
Fri, Feb. 18th, 2005, 04:08 am
Today was really great. I got out of bed really early because my mom was yelling at me. I feel a bit strange because we've just moved to Idaho and there's a weird smell in the house. I'm so angry. Paul is grounded. AGAIN! And I'm not allowed to see him. EVER. It's just NOT FAIR. I hate my mom and I wish she was dead. This wouldn't happen if I was allowed to live with dad. Last night I had to finish my term paper on the history of pre-communist Russian society. I focussed on the needs of women. I think it's ok, but if I don't pass this I'll lose my scholarship. I want to tell the world to get fucked. I am making this journal Friends Only because of the perverts and stalkers who only want to see my photos. Today, I got a digital camera! Yes! Here's ten thousand photographs of my cat. I want to say thanks to Babybob556 for making the background and icons for my journal. Thanks hon, ur super special! I went to the doctor yesterday, and he said I have bipolar disorder, just like my mom. You should all do this quiz! It's amazingly accurate. You just put in your name and birthday, and it will tell you what job you'll do when you grow up. That's enough for now. But I'll leave you with this poem I wrote. It's about my friend Robert, who has bipolar disorder. Just like me. And Heidi. Created with the Gregor's Semi-Automatic LiveJournal Updater™. Update your journal today! Powered by Rum and MonkeyThu, Feb. 17th, 2005, 12:16 am
Fri, Jan. 28th, 2005, 02:15 am
i have gmail! i'm so happy thank you so much katie Tue, Dec. 7th, 2004, 02:30 pm
my computer has been broken...and it still is so i will continue to not me around. if you want me call me and if you dont know m number ge it.
everybody has seen this http://www.boohbah.com/zone.html but how many of you knew, like i just found out when i woke up to my tivo recording it(why i dont know) that it is a childrens show on pbs?
you know yesterday my life was beautiful...earlier today even. the world as always made me sad but i found something that makes me happy and it can only get better. the suddenly today throws a shit storm at me and i feel like i've lost everything and my whole life is confused. for the first time in my life i felt like i was doing the right thing, in every aspect of my life i was satisfied and it was just how i'd hoped it would be but now i'm just confused. i know what i want it's the same thing i've always wanted all my life and i had it less than 12 hours ago and now all i want is to get it back but it feel sso far out of reach. but all i can do is try right? i'm really glad will didn't die today although i woudl have been ok with it if he did...that sounds mean. right now my biggest obstacle is time, i'm going to work my schedule like a mofo and hopefully be able to see mercedes tomorrow. and now i'm done because i have to go to sleep even tho i'm not tired but i'd like no be awake tomorrow to get what i need done. end.
my computer just crashed...and surprisingly thats never happened to me. i think it might be the power supply, but once i fix it i plan to post something interesting in here...well it might not be interesting but it will be a update.
for some reason everyone and their grandmother decided i was awake and that they should call me this morning which is weird cause when the hell am i up in the morning specifically on a Saturday morning. anyway the point is that tony called me this morning and told me Ivan canceled on Melissa and the i have a badge now for comic con and i do gt to work the masquerade. so I'm happy. there are too many people i know going tho i mean everyone is going to be there. people i know who shouldn't meet, it's crazy.
what words do i have that i feel in need of published? i can think of none. i don't even know who would read this. it seems since i haven't kept up in the live journal community the live journal community has no reason to keep up with me. after such a long time with such random spurts if mindless boredom who would bother to read it? and yet every time i write here these days there's still someone to remember me. well for those this post belongs. i bring you news that i am well. still alive and still kicking. maturing steadily and always awakening to some new insight on life. but also finding my present company rather daft. where are all the people who matter? i miss them. these days my social experiment has turned into my social circle. they are a people i loath mostly. i still have some sporadic contact with some people that matter but for the most I've lost all substance in my life aside from my books and personal studies. i don't even have the motivation to defend myself when accused of something i am innocent with these types anymore. so far I'm working go separating myself from everyone i know slowly but surely. and it doesn't leave the gaps i assumed it would..i have a new quest now: find stimulation and stop participating in that which i don't enjoy. it's time to get life together and do something with myself. so until next time whenever that may be i bid you farewell with a hope i visit in a more timely manner.
Thu, May. 20th, 2004, 02:17 am Test
does this thing still work? are there actually people out there to read my meandering thoughts when i feel the need to post them in a public forum?
today sucked im in a bad mood i hope you all die you especially i am better than you all again especially you lets get drunk and make out your place or hers?
Wed, Jan. 7th, 2004, 02:44 am
i haven't been happy since new years. not to mention the fact that everyone including myself is getting on my nerves 24/7. i've been trying everything i can think of to be happy i mean even my ass load of smart new clothes dont make me happy....i actually find that disturbing. i've been thinking about changing things to lead to more fun but i'm not sure i want that kind of fun anymore. what do i want with my life right now? what do i want to be doing. everything everything i can think of is beyond my control. the people i see and the places i go seem to empty these days. maybe i need to get filled. i dont think i've been carrying a straight thought but i'm too lazy to go back and read it and it's my journal so fuck it.
IF WE SHRANK THE EARTH'S POPULATION TO 100 PEOPLE.... The following is a non-biased perspective of the World's population.The author is unknown. If we could shrink the Earth's population to a village of precisley 100 people, with all the existing human ratios remaining the same, it would look something like this- 57 Asians 21 Europeans 14 from the Western Hemisphere, both north and south 8 Africans Of these 100 people: ~52 would be female ~48 would be male ~70 would be non-white ~30 would be white ~70 would be non-Christian ~30 would be Christian ~89 would be heterosexual ~11 would be homosexual ~6 people would posses 59% of the entire world's wealth and all of them would be from the United States. ~80 would live in sub-standard housing ~70 would be illiterate ~50 would suffer from malnutrition ~1 would be near death;1 would be near birth ~1 would have a college education ~1 would own a computer ~ "When one considers our world from such a compressed perspective, the need for both acceptance, understanding, and education becomes glaringly apparent."
Tue, Dec. 30th, 2003, 05:52 pm
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! When your still a kid you wanna go WEEEEEEEEEEEE But you ain't got drugs yet Just hold on to your....Gonads and strife... gonads and strife! gonads and strife! ::sings:: ~*{KITTY}*~ WHOOOO! LOOK AT MY NEW ICON! WOOT WOOT!
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